Sunday, December 04, 2005
10:58 AM
today is the 4th dec 2005..had a lot of feelings inside..and i think i wouldnt have time to say it out in the next few days coz of upcoming projs etc..so..i'll type it now..hmmm..itz been a year..i wouldnt say if itz fast or slow..coz it aint exactly either..last yr..i left on..7th..came back on the 13th..hahaz..yea..itz unforgettable..mi trip to taiwan..not of wad i did..but..how i felt..ive nv had this feeling anywhere in the world at all..nv experienced tat sense of freedom..the sense tat nth in the world held mi back..tat when i was there..i had a sudden impulse of running away..perhaps..tat time was realli when theres nth in the world for mi to dwell on..the onli time in mi whole entire life of 17 years..coz i settled everything before i left le..ahahz..kinda silly rite..but..tats so mi..don like to leave things unclear..still rmb last year this day was the time i said everything out to everyone arnd mi..said all tat i wanted..so..mi trip to taiwan was like a transition period..hahaz..and of coz i failed la..tats y im standing at where i am now..hahaz..dunno if u all understand..but nvm..hahaz..sometimes i can be so straightforward..and yet sometimes i can be so indirect..sometimes i feel tat im such a contradictary..and im thankful tat there r ppl arnd mi who can read mi like a book..:)..hmmm..and becoz of tat feeling in taiwan..tat i cant find anywhere..i wanna go back there someday again..yes..im very very sure..and itz not coz of shopping..not coz of 5566..now i already not so craziee over them le la..hahaz..frankly speaking..tat feeling..is wad i call flying away..ive always said tat one day i'll fly away..once i gave up tat tot..yea i realli did..tat i wouldnt ever wan to fly away again..hahaz..hmm..now the feeling of wanting to fly away..isnt back entirely yet..hmm..wonder if it will ever be back....wonder..if i wanna fly away..is becoz theres nth for mi to dwell on in the world anymore..or issit tat im forcing miself not to dwell on anything in the world....
